I've spent most of the day looking for/researching types and specifics of rope.
I can't stop thinking about it. Its something that plays in my mind.
Stuck on replay.
Suicide.
Really feels like the best option right now..
I'm losing hope.
I feel like I'm falling..
I don't really know what to say..
I really don't want to be alive anymore.
But I always said I would go to Nan's funeral.
I will do that for her, be there for her.
Then I will sort things and leave.
I'm thinking the 25th April. Would have been my Nan's birthday..
Toying with dates.
Flashbacks. Death. Funeral. Nightmares. Stress. Anxiety. Pain. Cut.
Maybe I should be scared, but I'm hurting too much to care..
Please. I just need to be free.
I can't stop thinking about it. Its something that plays in my mind.
Stuck on replay.
Suicide.
Really feels like the best option right now..
I'm losing hope.
I feel like I'm falling..
I don't really know what to say..
I really don't want to be alive anymore.
But I always said I would go to Nan's funeral.
I will do that for her, be there for her.
Then I will sort things and leave.
I'm thinking the 25th April. Would have been my Nan's birthday..
Toying with dates.
Flashbacks. Death. Funeral. Nightmares. Stress. Anxiety. Pain. Cut.
Maybe I should be scared, but I'm hurting too much to care..
Please. I just need to be free.
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