I'm losing.
I can't fight anymore.
I have never tried this hard before; wanted something different before..
I cut too deep.
Way too deep.
Should get stitches but am scared of the judgement. Plus, it's probably too late now.
I can't focus.
Most of the time I can't even cry but then there's random moments when I can't stop. I am trying everything to stop myself falling further and it's still not working. What do I do?! How can I keep hold of myself when everything is crashing around me.
I don't want to be like this.
There all worried. My team. My support workers. My family.
I don't know what else I can do to make this stop, how to make this bearable again.
I want to sleep. Without nightmares. Think without flashbacks. I don't want intrusive thoughts or plans of my death. I just want it all to go away.
Somebody please help me.
I can't fight anymore.
I have never tried this hard before; wanted something different before..
I cut too deep.
Way too deep.
Should get stitches but am scared of the judgement. Plus, it's probably too late now.
I can't focus.
Most of the time I can't even cry but then there's random moments when I can't stop. I am trying everything to stop myself falling further and it's still not working. What do I do?! How can I keep hold of myself when everything is crashing around me.
I don't want to be like this.
There all worried. My team. My support workers. My family.
I don't know what else I can do to make this stop, how to make this bearable again.
I want to sleep. Without nightmares. Think without flashbacks. I don't want intrusive thoughts or plans of my death. I just want it all to go away.
Somebody please help me.
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