I hate how alone I feel.
My sister was upset last night; so was texting me.
I truly don't think Dad realises how much it hurts that everything always has to end with
It's just frustrating that I cannot do ANYTHING to help my sister myself.
It's all promises and niceties that I'll get Dad to do "..." etc and make
him see how important this is.
Yet.
He seems unable.
My support worker did say to me that most men are just unable to prioritize when it comes to
physical and emotional stuff. Emotional stuff always being bottom of course.
He has 4 daughters that he is now in complete control and care of bringing up;
now is not a good time to be ignoring emotions.
I just think it looks like my parent's are still not seeing what I've been through/done to cope..
I don't want another of us to end up coping in these ways but if they keep using the
'sweet blissful ignorance' technique that seems very likely to happen.
Problematically, he is breaking my promises's to my sister.
I told her I'd make sure he got her help [she was extremely reluctant for ages]
and that it would be asap [any longer and she'll try and back out of it all]
I've already had 4 conversations with her trying to back out of this and Dad seems
to fail to realise how hard it is to keep re-convincing her that it's the best thing..
Yesterday aswell as texting my sister. I got a text from my Nan.
First contact in I don't know.. months. I saw her at Christmas, but it was a kinda flying visit.
I haven't seen my friends in a while. And it's definitely not consistent. Plus I've only just realised
how cut off I am from my family. Other than this particular sister, I am pretty much alone.
And unless money is needed/wanted, I am a complete last thought.
My sister was upset last night; so was texting me.
I truly don't think Dad realises how much it hurts that everything always has to end with
"Make sure you tell Dad about that"It's not that I don't want him to be part of the picture, far from it.
It's just frustrating that I cannot do ANYTHING to help my sister myself.
It's all promises and niceties that I'll get Dad to do "..." etc and make
him see how important this is.
Yet.
He seems unable.
My support worker did say to me that most men are just unable to prioritize when it comes to
physical and emotional stuff. Emotional stuff always being bottom of course.
He has 4 daughters that he is now in complete control and care of bringing up;
now is not a good time to be ignoring emotions.
I just think it looks like my parent's are still not seeing what I've been through/done to cope..
I don't want another of us to end up coping in these ways but if they keep using the
'sweet blissful ignorance' technique that seems very likely to happen.
Problematically, he is breaking my promises's to my sister.
I told her I'd make sure he got her help [she was extremely reluctant for ages]
and that it would be asap [any longer and she'll try and back out of it all]
I've already had 4 conversations with her trying to back out of this and Dad seems
to fail to realise how hard it is to keep re-convincing her that it's the best thing..
Yesterday aswell as texting my sister. I got a text from my Nan.
First contact in I don't know.. months. I saw her at Christmas, but it was a kinda flying visit.
I haven't seen my friends in a while. And it's definitely not consistent. Plus I've only just realised
how cut off I am from my family. Other than this particular sister, I am pretty much alone.
And unless money is needed/wanted, I am a complete last thought.
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