I've been feeling pretty crap today, low, tired, wanting to cry {thankfully
haven't cried in front of anyone today!} This is the 4th day of my latest
fast, seeing as I keep fucking up.. plus I don’t like to fast when I’m on
my period because that makes me feel INCREDIBLY ill so I didn't
exactly consider it worth it. I'm hoping to do between 28 and 30 days
fast this time.. I KNOW I can do it, I've done it so many times before,
but starting up always seems to be the hardest part. {I am aware this
will mean fasting during my period but I'll figure something around that
once I get to it. Had an appointment last Friday {11th} with my
Care-Co-Ordinator. It seems to have already got around the CMHT that
I am 'dating' as she calls it. I will post properly about this soon! Meh,
I truly worry about this bout am trying so hard not too, I've got so
much on my mind already, I can't really do this anymore, so I'm having
to resort back to all my older ways of coping. I still cant sleep. It's
making me feel even worse, although I'm aware that I am probably only
missing out on extra nightmares.
haven't cried in front of anyone today!} This is the 4th day of my latest
fast, seeing as I keep fucking up.. plus I don’t like to fast when I’m on
my period because that makes me feel INCREDIBLY ill so I didn't
exactly consider it worth it. I'm hoping to do between 28 and 30 days
fast this time.. I KNOW I can do it, I've done it so many times before,
but starting up always seems to be the hardest part. {I am aware this
will mean fasting during my period but I'll figure something around that
once I get to it. Had an appointment last Friday {11th} with my
Care-Co-Ordinator. It seems to have already got around the CMHT that
I am 'dating' as she calls it. I will post properly about this soon! Meh,
I truly worry about this bout am trying so hard not too, I've got so
much on my mind already, I can't really do this anymore, so I'm having
to resort back to all my older ways of coping. I still cant sleep. It's
making me feel even worse, although I'm aware that I am probably only
missing out on extra nightmares.
